Seriously I think I am in a nightmare, is it really Halloween '08? It can't be! AAAHHHHHHHH!!
What I have learned this week:
1. As you get older, time goes by faster! I just turned 30 yesterday and my birthday is right around the corner. Yikes!
2. If I make it through the next two months and this last month without being committed, it is going to be a miracle.
3. Procrastinating about Halloween costumes - not a good idea. It really isn't my fault but I feel horrible for my kids. Holiday season is my favorite but this year I am getting a failing grade already.
4. Never expect to go into Wal - Mart the day before a holiday and expect to come out happy with a smile on your face. Not possible. As a matter of fact - Don't even drive into the parking lot just stay away!!
5. Girl time is a necessity. One I don't get enough of. Well let me clarify, I get plenty of little girl time ( I have 3 girls ) but not enough big girl time.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Friday, October 24, 2008
Emotions
So chop it up to making up for lost time. As you can imagine if you read the previous post I have a ton going through my mind these days, hence the two Friday Fives.
What I have learned these past few weeks:
1. I wish I had visited my Grandparents more so that my children would have known thier Grandpapa better and not let the miles and the inconvenience keep me from going. I wish I had known him better - his life. The distance between my Papa and I before now seems like he was just across the street compared to the distance that we have between us now.
2. I not a fan of ICU/SICU wing of the hospital. Such sadness but yet in the waiting room of the ICU there is still so much hope and love. I hope never to revisit but wished I had gone back to check on a family that was there when we were there, they practically lived there - waiting. They were so nice and I pray that they had a happy ending and not one like ours.
3. It is so painful to watch your Grandparents having to say goodbye. 62 years of marriage, that was one of the most difficult things to go through. I felt so helpless, I can't even imagine. The love that they share is both beautiful and inspiring.
4. I am stronger than I thought. Anyone who knows me knows I don't handle this subject well but in the midst of all this terrible sadness my faith and belief strengthened and carried me through the toughest parts.
5. I am going to try not to take things for granted. You never know what is going to happen. I thought I would have my Papa around for a lot longer but I was wrong and I have so many regrets. I know in my heart that he forgives me and I can't change it but I can change what is ahead of me and I am going to make an honest effort to do so, not let everyday life get in the way of making sure the people around me know how much I care about them.
What I have learned these past few weeks:
1. I wish I had visited my Grandparents more so that my children would have known thier Grandpapa better and not let the miles and the inconvenience keep me from going. I wish I had known him better - his life. The distance between my Papa and I before now seems like he was just across the street compared to the distance that we have between us now.
2. I not a fan of ICU/SICU wing of the hospital. Such sadness but yet in the waiting room of the ICU there is still so much hope and love. I hope never to revisit but wished I had gone back to check on a family that was there when we were there, they practically lived there - waiting. They were so nice and I pray that they had a happy ending and not one like ours.
3. It is so painful to watch your Grandparents having to say goodbye. 62 years of marriage, that was one of the most difficult things to go through. I felt so helpless, I can't even imagine. The love that they share is both beautiful and inspiring.
4. I am stronger than I thought. Anyone who knows me knows I don't handle this subject well but in the midst of all this terrible sadness my faith and belief strengthened and carried me through the toughest parts.
5. I am going to try not to take things for granted. You never know what is going to happen. I thought I would have my Papa around for a lot longer but I was wrong and I have so many regrets. I know in my heart that he forgives me and I can't change it but I can change what is ahead of me and I am going to make an honest effort to do so, not let everyday life get in the way of making sure the people around me know how much I care about them.
I will always remember
Sorry I have not posted in a couple of weeks. A fun weekend trip to California turned into a not so fun two week extended stay ending in the loss of my dearly beloved Grandfather. So you can understand why Friday Five was pushed aside. Plus my internet ability was not very convenient which is probably a blessing because my Friday Five would have been sad and depressing to reflect my emotions at that time. But I am back and in honor of my Papa's passing: this weeks Friday Five is going to be 5 things that will always remind me of my Papa.
1. Snails. When I was little Papa would try to get me to step on the snails that would be all over his sidewalk. Of course I wouldn't do it, yuck, but he would get such a kick out of my reactions. Later he did the same thing with my oldest daughter, she pretty much had the same reaction as me.
2. Icecream. My Papa loved icecream and he could usually use icecream to lure my children to get close to him when they were being shy.
3. Cookies and Candy. Another favorite of his. He had a cookie drawer that all of the great grandchildren were aware of and when we visited he would escort them to the drawer and let them pick there cookie, Mothers Oatmeal were my favorite and always a choice. Every night he would sit down in his chair and have some candy, I wish I could do that.
4. Bird feeders. He always had bird feeders filled with a ton of bird seed, he liked to watch the birds outside the window.
5. Roses. He loved his roses. I can not remember a time without the rosebushes out front.
These are just a few of the things that will always remind me of him for there are too many to post. He was a great man who could always put a smile on your face and make you laugh. I never saw him angry and I miss him very much.
1. Snails. When I was little Papa would try to get me to step on the snails that would be all over his sidewalk. Of course I wouldn't do it, yuck, but he would get such a kick out of my reactions. Later he did the same thing with my oldest daughter, she pretty much had the same reaction as me.
2. Icecream. My Papa loved icecream and he could usually use icecream to lure my children to get close to him when they were being shy.
3. Cookies and Candy. Another favorite of his. He had a cookie drawer that all of the great grandchildren were aware of and when we visited he would escort them to the drawer and let them pick there cookie, Mothers Oatmeal were my favorite and always a choice. Every night he would sit down in his chair and have some candy, I wish I could do that.
4. Bird feeders. He always had bird feeders filled with a ton of bird seed, he liked to watch the birds outside the window.
5. Roses. He loved his roses. I can not remember a time without the rosebushes out front.
These are just a few of the things that will always remind me of him for there are too many to post. He was a great man who could always put a smile on your face and make you laugh. I never saw him angry and I miss him very much.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Happy October!
What I have learned this week:
1. There is such a thing as a live bearing Tropical Fish and they can have up to 60 babies. Wish I had learned that little tidbit last week before the fish buying took place!
2. My Children remember EVERYTHING! The good, the bad, and the ugly!
3. No matter how hard I try, I can never seem to get ready for a trip without stress and pulling an all nighter the night before.
4. More on the Fish: The crab may be fun but he likes to find ways to escape! I just know I am going to find him on floor one day, smooshed. Or in my littlest ones mouth!
5. I absolutely love this time of year! October first comes and I just get so happy at the thought of the holidays, decorating, baking, eating, cold weather, etc. And as my kids get older it just seems to get even better.
1. There is such a thing as a live bearing Tropical Fish and they can have up to 60 babies. Wish I had learned that little tidbit last week before the fish buying took place!
2. My Children remember EVERYTHING! The good, the bad, and the ugly!
3. No matter how hard I try, I can never seem to get ready for a trip without stress and pulling an all nighter the night before.
4. More on the Fish: The crab may be fun but he likes to find ways to escape! I just know I am going to find him on floor one day, smooshed. Or in my littlest ones mouth!
5. I absolutely love this time of year! October first comes and I just get so happy at the thought of the holidays, decorating, baking, eating, cold weather, etc. And as my kids get older it just seems to get even better.
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